(Vintage Jujumama from July 2009)
Man oh Man! I am so excited! I just accepted this new open life of mine. I left the world of monogamy kicking and screaming. But, once you go Open Universal Love – you never come back to the personal ownership drama. It’s good to know that I can explore my sacred sensuality and ONENESS in new ways and with luscious men, ay man I choose…
Having my choice of 3 billion men is thrilling. Why didn’t I see this before? I feel like everything I need, desire, whatever healing I crave is mine for the choosing.
Here is what I really want: I create mystical magical love affairs that serve the purpose of adding quantities of high quality healing bliss to my life. I want men who understand and respect the fact that Yin and Yang together can create anything. I want men who will plant their seeds in me – seeds of beauty, seeds of desire, seeds of inspiration – I will make those desires grow until they manifest! And my kings will see the power of the love we create…
I desire men who know their role in my life. I desire Tantra Men; Men who give. I am open to receiving you. Men who want to see me soar and men who can soar from the catalytic YIN moisture I provide. I want to be a YIN provider… a soft place to land… I want my Kings to know the purpose of our relationship, the value of the union of souls, the power of the escalating chi we create, the simmering Kundalini, the vitality we make and share.
I want men who take care of themselves mentally, men who are intellectual, men who are leaders, monks, negotiators, and warriors. I want my men to want me to succeed and make tangible efforts on my behalf, and in the world, as I make equal and opposite efforts on their behalf in the ethereal plane. .. I want my men to get that… love that, need that – Adore that. I want to adore my men.
I want to allow my “neediness” unfold. (Oh hell yes I am needy. I need to see my reflection so that I know who I am!) I want my men to feel needed by me. I do need men and women too for that matter – Interdependence…. And I need each one for different reasons. I want my Kings to understand that my need for one is not a negation of my need for another. I want them to understand that there is no pecking order, but that there is only love – abundant love, never ending love, enough to go around. The world is made of love.
I want men who are free. I want men who want to explore the inner plains and let our combined and individual manifestations appear in the outer plains. I want metaphysical men, men who get dat. I want them to allow me my ceremonies, my ritual, my angels, my oracles, allow me to be my magical self; they should get dat. I definitely get them. I want men who love the fact that I receive them… I relieve them… I believe in them and thus our powerful magic is recycled forever…
Practically, I want them to whisk me away from my very busy life, away from the work and the kids and the life of a celebrity. I want them to make love to me and then let me nap on the clouds… I want them to play music for me and buy me dinner, breakfast and then fruits like cherries (my favorite) but organic ones, with fresh juice and Fiji Water… I feel the need to be cared for. I feel the need to have strong, protective arms about my being… securing me. I receive this. Ummmm… yes.
And I want to nurture men. I want them to allow me to appreciate them, I want them to know that I am as serious as life itself when I say – honey – you make my life a living heaven. You make my day, man! You are hilarious. You make me laugh. You are an incredible, respectable, luscious, and kingly, man. I honor every cell in your body. I honor every thought in your head. You ROCK!
I want my men to understand my family dynamic. Respect and love my husband with me, respect and adore my kids with me. I want men who have ‘open’ women. Who wants a man with no women? I want to know their women. I want to respect their women. I want to empower their women and their relationships so that they always have what they need, even in my absence.
I want communal men, men who know how to have a cigar with my other men, men who know how to share a beer with my husband. Men who do yoga, tai chi (yum!) Capoeira, corporate, marketing, chi kung kinda men! I want diplomatic men, men who are about business, men who are not attached to old ideas, and useless mores. And I LOVE a techie! Give me men who know how to hook my nine websites up! Give me men who know that I have to be online at 10 AM each morning and let them watch me tweet, watch me work, and let me be. Let them know that I work and let that be OK with them.
I want men who free me up! Men who adore my freedom and know that my love for them is not something they own, but something they share. I want calls, I want men checking on me, concerned about my well-being, sending money, love, food, resources of all kinds to make me comfortable. I receive this… yes!
That is the type of men I attract. I attract whole men being as whole as I am. I attract my mirrors, so I know there will be challenges. The purpose of all relationships is growth. Let my men get that and work with me through the challenges and let us see the other side of each, and celebrate growth and progress. Give me men like this in every state so that when I tour, I see them, they greet me, they show up, they adore me and our mission…
I know I have this situation, right now – out there – waiting for me. I am ready to be that kind of YIN Goddess, I am ready to nurture you and make your seeds sprout. Lets make magic together. I am now taking applications! As are so many Kweens that I know…
For real though.